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Inner Pondering
Welcome to Inner Pondering, a sacred space for the soul on its journey home. This podcast is for the quiet seekers walking through the fire of personal transformation—those who feel the pull toward a spiritual awakening, to heal emotionally, and to remember who they truly are.
Each episode is a gentle yet honest conversation on navigating the "dark nights" of the soul, releasing what no longer serves, and returning to your inner truth. Through mindfulness, personal reflections, and soulful reminders, Nikki invites you to slow down, breathe, and reconnect with the wisdom already inside you.
This isn’t about becoming someone new—it’s about the "unbecoming" of everything you’re not. It is a journey of spiritual growth and emotional healing, not by fixing your wounded parts, but by remembering the part of you that is already whole.
When you finally listen to the quiet voice within… that’s when the real inner awakening begins.
Inner Pondering
Choosing yourself when the world wants someone else
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"As soon as I stopped caring about how people see me, something shifted. I had to choose myself. I had to come home to myself."
There is a paradoxical freedom in what some call "spiritual indifference." It isn't a coldness or a lack of love; rather, it is the beginning of real love—a love that is no longer a beggar for approval. For most of us, "caring" has become a mask for fear. We manage our identities and curate our words to ensure we are seen as "good" or "spiritual," but this constant management is exhausting.
In this episode, Nikki explores the honest truth about letting go of the endless chase for validation. We dive into the difference between apathy (disconnection) and true spiritual detachment (deep connection to the Self). When you refuse to let the world own your attention, you stop being a victim of external opinion and start trusting your own internal guidance system again.
This episode explores:
- Why "caring" is often a survival tactic for the ego.
- The bridge between people-pleasing and spiritual maturity.
- How to stand in your truth when the world gets loud and judgmental.
- The moment you realize that the only version of you that matters is the one that exists within.
If you are tired of fitting into boxes and ready to reclaim your energy from the opinions of others, this pondering is for you.
Thank you for listening! You are the one I come to meet.
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