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Inner Pondering
Welcome to Inner Pondering, a sacred space for the soul on its journey home.
This podcast is for anyone walking through the fire of transformation—those who feel the pull to awaken, to heal deeply, and to remember who they truly are.
Each episode is a gentle yet honest conversation on navigating the dark nights, releasing what no longer serves, ready to stop running, and returning to your inner truth. With grounded insights, personal reflections, and soulful reminders, Nikki invites you to slow down, breathe, and reconnect with the wisdom already inside you.
This isn’t about becoming someone new—it’s about unbecoming everything you’re not, and healing emotionally and spiritually. Not by fixing the wounded parts of you, but by remembering what is already whole within.
Because when you finally listen to the quiet voice within… that’s when the real awakening begins.
Inner Pondering
Why Love Felt Like Longing Until I Awakened
If you’re healing from a version of love that cost you your peace — this message is for you.
Many of us learned to chase love outside of ourselves before we ever learned to recognize the love already within. We confused attachment with connection… and survival with intimacy. But awakening changes that.
The more you heal, the less you are willing to abandon yourself for love.
In this video, we explore:
• why love felt like longing instead of peace
• how awakening shifts the relationships we choose
• breaking patterns rooted in fear and people-pleasing
• why self-worth becomes the foundation of real love
• the quiet moment you realize love begins within
Your healing isn’t making you harder to love — it’s inviting in a love that finally feels like home.
Take a breath. You’re finding your way back to the love that was always yours.
Thank you for listening! You are the one I come to meet.
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