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Inner Pondering
Welcome to Inner Pondering, a sacred space for the soul on its journey home.
This podcast is for anyone walking through the fire of transformation—those who feel the pull to awaken, to heal deeply, and to remember who they truly are.
Each episode is a gentle yet honest conversation on navigating the dark nights, releasing what no longer serves, ready to stop running, and returning to your inner truth. With grounded insights, personal reflections, and soulful reminders, Nikki invites you to slow down, breathe, and reconnect with the wisdom already inside you.
This isn’t about becoming someone new—it’s about unbecoming everything you’re not, and healing emotionally and spiritually. Not by fixing the wounded parts of you, but by remembering what is already whole within.
Because when you finally listen to the quiet voice within… that’s when the real awakening begins.
Inner Pondering
Why Your Energy Feels Heavy Before You Wake Up
Have you ever wondered why your energy feels heavy, even when you haven’t done anything wrong? Before awakening, most of us carry inherited patterns, beliefs, and generational trauma without even realizing it. This energy becomes part of our identity—until spiritual awakening begins to clear it.
In this episode, I explore why your energy feels heavy before you wake up and how awakening clears your energy without you even realizing it. You’ll learn how unconscious conditioning weighs you down, why shadow work and ancestral healing are part of the process, and how the shift into presence reveals your authentic self. Awakening is not just a mindset shift—it’s an energetic detox that brings clarity, peace, and freedom.
Awakening can feel lonely, even misunderstood, as you let go of old identities, toxic patterns, and roles that no longer align. But this clearing is also divine protection—it removes what no longer belongs to you and makes space for your inner truth to shine.
If you’ve been feeling the weight of inherited beliefs or asking why your energy feels so heavy, this message will help you see that the clearing is already happening. Awakening is the natural energy shift that reveals your authentic self.
Thank you for listening! You are the one I come to meet.
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